Alexa Penavega paid tribute to his dead daughter, Indy, with a gloomy photo shared one year after his death.
The “Spy Kids” star cradled his baby in his arms in an image captured from the hospital shortly after Indy was “born at rest” last year.
“This was the most painful moment I have experienced,” Penavega wrote online. “I remember feeling so difficult to breathe. An so -deep painful pain … how was this real?”
“He did not feel real. Each emotion was flooded at the same time,” he added. “And yet, despite the devastating loss, we feel so heroes … so covered … a super natural peace. Everything was out of our control. We had to give everything to God.
“The cargo was too heavy to take us, so the weight of us attended us and covered us in his peace.”
Penavega admitted that despite crying the death of Indy, he still celebrated how his daughter could give “life” in many other ways.
“About this last year we have seen life out of their lives. We saw people heal for Indy,” he wrote. “We saw the comfort raised due to Indy. We saw that relationships were restored … God gave his life so much fruit … both meaning and purpose.
“Our sweet girl is celebrating with Jesus today. And although we still cry and we would like to have her in our arms … we know that she is waiting for us in a place that is beyond everything we can imagine. Jeremiah 29:11”.
Alexa and her husband Carlos have three children together: children Ocean and Kingston, and her daughter Rio.
On April 15, the couple announced that Alexa had a fetal death in a shared statement in their two Instagram accounts.
“There are never the right words to say when it comes to loss. After a beautiful and peaceful delivery, our daughter was ‘Indy’ at rest,” they wrote. “A painful trip has a leg. But in pain we have found peace. God continues to comfort and hold ourselves in his arms.”
Religion played an important factor to help the couple cope with their loss.
“I don’t know how people do it without God, we can’t explain it apart from that it was like supernatural peace that made no sense,” Alexa told Fox Digital in June.
“It makes no sense. It is beyond understanding. Because after everything happened, we were obviously devastated. He was heartbreaking. And yet we felt that God only told us, ‘Hey, I am very sorry, and go to this, and go to this, and go to this to this, and go to this, and go to this, and go to this to this, for you.